There’s this one person who really knows me well, more than my family. She knows when I’m happy or sad. If I’m not in the mood to talk or simply, I don’t like a person. She will do anything for me, she did everything for me. For almost 3 years of my life spent with her, she really made me feel so special, she made me feel that I am worth with everything I have, family & friends. She was a blessing to me, was.
I know I made the biggest mistake in my life, to let this go, to let her GO. I know she’s hurting right now, but she really don’t know how much I’m hurting right now because I hurt her. I hurt her so many times, and yet she’s still with me. She stayed. But right now I don’t know where else to go without her. Because of my fucking stupidity, we became miserable, I ruined it with my own hands. No one knows the whole story, but I’m all blaming it to myself.
I wish you were still here in my bed, cuddling like we used to do. I will miss everything about you, us. We are the perfect couple, THAT perfect relationship that everyone wants to have. Maybe because we had a great bond. We were like, sisters (sometimes), best friends, buddies, partners and most we were lovers. Kaya nga tumagal tayo diba? Pero alam ko this is not what forever looks like. Diba sabi natin foreve* tayo? Alam ko nagkamali ako, I admit and I’m very sorry. Kung pwede lang akong mamatay pagkatapos nun namatay na ko para di ka na nahihirapan ng ganito.
I just wanted you to know na ikaw lang talaga, totoo yung text ko sayo. But I don’t know what happened with us. Lagi ko nga iniisip na, ikaw yung taong mahal na mahal ko, buong buhay ko umikot sayo, pero anong nangyare? Masakit sakin na sa isang umaga, biglang di na lang kita mahal? Minsan pinipilit ko pa din ibalik lahat lahat ng memories natin, pero everytime we argue/fight, nawawala lahat ulit. Back to 0.
I’ll miss everything, me & you, together. The things we do, like eat, watch movies, yung pinaka ultimate bonding natin yung Ukay e lalo na yung outfit of the day natin. Yung cuddle moment natin. I’ll miss everything. Sana katulad na lang ng dati, kahit ako na lang yung patay na patay sayo. Sabi mo nga kagabi, ang hirap, ang hirap hirap ng ganito. I’ll miss every little thing. That smile, eyes, lips, laugh and your ugly singing voice. Sorry for broadcasting it, but for sure I’ll miss it. I will miss you, your ever lasting surprises kahit walang occasion, yung lagi mong paghatid sakin kahit gabing gabi na, pang aaway mo, and yung lagi mo ko sinasabi na maganda ako kahit hindi naman, you’re such a big ass bias! But I love it.
Remember bakit ko din sinasabi na naguguluhan ako, siguro dahil din sa mga nakapaligid sating dalawa, everyone want us to be okay, together again. Kahit ilang beses ko ipasok sa utak kong magulo e hindi talaga, they’re our memories also. Siguro nasanay lang din sila na tayo lagi ang magkasama, walang Ava kung walang Misty, walang Misty kung walang Ava. Ang hirap din ang gulo gulo.
Thank you for all the wonderful memories. Sorry kung hindi na madadagdagan yun. Siguro nga hanggang dito na lang tayo. I just hope na someday, makahanap ka nang totoong magmamahal sayo, magpapasaya sayo, pero alam ko naman sagot dyan bakit ko pa ba sinasabi. Someday, one day.
I will still love you in the morning…….